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I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
The thought is too much to conceive
I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
That my life became 'cause...
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel likeI could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
So where were you
When all this I was going through
You never took the time to ask me
Just what you could doI only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
That my life became 'cause...
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel likeI could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
But I never meant to fade away
I never meant to fade
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel likeI could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
I try to breathe

Fade, Break the Cycle, Staind

ow. i cant move my finger at all. it is numb and in pain. cuz 2day after skool some bee-wasp thing decided to stick its sting-ey ass into my finger. it was actually quite interesting, besides for the fact that it hurt. cuz like the stinger came out of the bee, and then when i tried to pull the stinger out it was as though it was glued on with some sort of weird bee-gut-jelly-glue stuff. yes. mmm cantalope icecream is good. except ive never had it before. but cantalopes are awesome. and pomegranate icecream is good. BWAAAAH i get to miss skool 2 weeks from now friday and monday to go to long beach cuz im awsome. except that means that i have to make up the star test during lunch on thurs. but thats awsome because lunch is only like 30 minutes, and theyr supposed to give u like 2 hours to do the test, and so im going to finish it really early and then like have an hour to walk around pretending im still taking my test when im supposed to be in 1st period i think it is...muahahah im evil. be afraid. chickenpoop. haha today someone called my spanish teacher a fucker. and she heard her. not like theres nything wrong with saying that tho i mean its true and stuff. i h8 badminton. sry for all u badminton lovers out there....Fuck i just found out that my dad threw out my shoes. GRRRRRRRRRRR they were my awsome special pretty shoes 2. o well that means i can blackmail him to get me more shoes. hEhEhE. POKE u just got cyber raped.

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Happy bunny day peoplez ^.^damn it. spring break went by waaaay too fast. seriously that seemed like the shortest week-long break i have ever had in my entire life. and next week is going to suck. yeah. like i already said, i hvae 5 projects. and i dont even know what im doing for 2 of them. fortunately i finished the easy science one..but i still have to present it. and my 1000 point-and thats not exaggerating- english project ive barely worked on. theyr all due next week. plus im g2 have normal hw. anddd im screwed cuz i dont even get home until like 7 30 every night. Fuck and i dont think we even have another break until summer vacation, when school's out. that freaking sux. does ny1 know when 3rd quarter grades are coming out? cuz i need to like hijak my mailbox and hide em when they come so my parents dont see. i dont even know what i have in like half of my classes, which isnt good. and the other half that i know arent good either. not that i really care nymore. but if theyr really bad then my parents are going to basically lock me up in my room and not allow me to do nyhting i want to. oh yay my new ipod is freezing up. aGaIn. i hope the apple store will replace it...atleast i gots the warranty still
Sorry for wasting 5 or however many minutes of ur life with this.....i just had to write it down somehow..

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i have projects in all of my 5 core classes. it sux. yep. thatz it.

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i have projects in all of my 5 core classes. it sux. yep. thatz it.